After learning, thee times over, that I was pregnant I was a mix of emotions. I paced backed and forth in our bed room trying not to freak out. Then for a moment I stopped and really thought about things. I have wanted to be a Mom for as long as I can remember. I put my hands on my stomach and closed my eyes and thanked God for the amazing gift that he had given me.
I wanted to call Michael so bad, but I had known for years how I wanted to tell him that we were going to be parents, and calling him freaking out on the phone was not it. I really wanted him to be the first person that I told. So I tried to think about what I would do for the next four hours. I knew that there was no way that I could keep it together until then, the freak out factor was high.
As happy as I was to become a Mom our life was not exactly in line for it. I was only substitute teaching at the time, and not bring in very much money. Our house was a complete construction zone. I was planning on completing my degree by doing my student teaching the semester the baby was due. But, the thing that was freaking me out the most was that I did not have health insurance and having a baby is crazy expensive.
So I got into my car and drove over my friend Courtney’s house. When she opened the door I broke into tears, all of my emotions rising to the top and over flowing. She did a great job of telling me that everything would be all right and that everything would work its self out. I don’t know what I would have done without her that day!